Finally here
I really didn't think that the weekend was ever going to get here, however, it has arrived. The beginning of my week was extremely trying and tested my will. I was able to dig deep inside of myself and realize that I needed some regrouping time. Which BTW starts at hmm about ten tomorrow morning. At first I think I will be in shock to be in "the van" by myself, music blaring, feeling free. Eventually I will not feel so lost as I frequently do at the beginning of any free time when not mothering those sweet little devils, I mean angels. But SANITY will take over!!
Today I sat alone, answering one call after another. During slow times I was able to read a literary magazine and draw a pretty good picture. Well at least for my kind of art I think it was pretty good. Actually I was able to not get frustrated and almost finish it. I contemplated finishing it tonight, but the rational side of me says don't even touch it. The chances are that I would fuck something on it up and then do as I usually do,scribble all over it in frustration. At this point I don't want to risk it. If all turns out well I hope to frame her and hang her on my wall or give her away to someone who might appreciate her. Dunno..... Maybe I will get crafty and scan her onto the blog. Dunno...
When I got home today my parents told me that they were going to take their new motorhome to the coast for the holiday. Which works out great for me, I can just come home when I am done at the coast. No need to rent a room! You see it all works out in the end. I was unable to find a room on the coast this weekend, now I don't need one. Although I will admit that I would love to wake up to the view of the coast, in a room all to myself. I have totally forgotten what it is like to be able to walk around naked. Not that it is a pleasant sight, but when you're alone, you are the only judge.
Ok enough of the how great it is gonna be tomorrow talk. Reality is that I am using this day to sort some out some major decisions in my life. I know that one day isn't going to solve all of my problems. The goal is to find the path that I feel is right for me. I think I know what it is, but I need to be sure. Being away from this computer, the house and my family is the only thing that can encourage the positive energy I will be able to contribute to these matters. There really are few certainties in life, discovering what they are is surely good. Ok I am rambling nonsense.
Be on the look out for some Oregon Coast ocean pics loaded up on Sunday! And of course a general run down of my "free time".
Take care!
~Cheers, Julie
Today I sat alone, answering one call after another. During slow times I was able to read a literary magazine and draw a pretty good picture. Well at least for my kind of art I think it was pretty good. Actually I was able to not get frustrated and almost finish it. I contemplated finishing it tonight, but the rational side of me says don't even touch it. The chances are that I would fuck something on it up and then do as I usually do,scribble all over it in frustration. At this point I don't want to risk it. If all turns out well I hope to frame her and hang her on my wall or give her away to someone who might appreciate her. Dunno..... Maybe I will get crafty and scan her onto the blog. Dunno...
When I got home today my parents told me that they were going to take their new motorhome to the coast for the holiday. Which works out great for me, I can just come home when I am done at the coast. No need to rent a room! You see it all works out in the end. I was unable to find a room on the coast this weekend, now I don't need one. Although I will admit that I would love to wake up to the view of the coast, in a room all to myself. I have totally forgotten what it is like to be able to walk around naked. Not that it is a pleasant sight, but when you're alone, you are the only judge.
Ok enough of the how great it is gonna be tomorrow talk. Reality is that I am using this day to sort some out some major decisions in my life. I know that one day isn't going to solve all of my problems. The goal is to find the path that I feel is right for me. I think I know what it is, but I need to be sure. Being away from this computer, the house and my family is the only thing that can encourage the positive energy I will be able to contribute to these matters. There really are few certainties in life, discovering what they are is surely good. Ok I am rambling nonsense.
Be on the look out for some Oregon Coast ocean pics loaded up on Sunday! And of course a general run down of my "free time".
Take care!
~Cheers, Julie
posted by Internet_chick at 10:01 PM
1 Comments:
Enjoy your weekend, and the wonder of being alone in your house. I can't wait to hear all about it, although what I really want is for you to get the break you need to put your mind at peace and find some quiet in your soul.
Have a marvelous weekend!
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