Closure

Today I had closure, to some extent. I agreed to attend a therapy session with John in regards to a domestic violence incident which had become the demise of our marriage. Through many of my own counseling sessions, I had already processed and came to a conclusion that would allow me to move forward on this issue. But to sit in a room at his request, with his therapist and know what the desired outcome, was in short intimidating. The outlook that I chose to have on this event is for pure growth. The experience I had today was like that of many other discussions we have had to resolve problems. The difference was that I had someone who was able to stop and ask him if he understood what I was saying. I am extremely grateful that I took the risk to attend this session. She really challenged him to re-evaluate the events that occurred that night last summer. Part of me wants to write the blow for blow of each moment of this account of history that was talked about today. But I am not. The bottom line is that when the session was over and we were at our cars in a very awkward moment, he turned to me and said "Julie I need to tell you something. That night, I know it started in the livingroom. I know that I was rough on you and that I caused this situation to happen. I am really sorry." I said "OK, thanks, I know you know, thanks for admitting it".
That was the moment that released from me any leftover guilt from that night and what I had contributed to the situation. I was in the KNOW, and I trust myself, and I will not be treated as if I have done something wrong, when I have not.

For now I am going to end this story and be grateful that I am a person that can be compassionate about others and give empathy.

Cheers~