I need not sacrifice myself to love you....

There are a thousand things she said.....She will never say those things to you again. She turned and walked away as she had done numerous times before today. Slowing down to look back at his face, as to see his sorrow. This time she saw no sorrow, only his back as he crept away into the night. Somehow that made her want him more, to feel his embrace. No, that is not what she wanted to do. Instead she methodically repeated the same thing over and over again in her mind. As to convince herself of what she was doing. Because she was unsure if the strength she had would be enough. Thoughts of blissful happiness were the only focus she let in. Obviously in denial of the years of sadness and pain that surrounded those brief blissful moment. Oh her mind was a dangerous place to spend time in, she often found herself there unwillingly. Today was not unlike other days that she wrestled with the choices she had made. But today, he walked away, she knew he had finally listened to what she had said too many times. On her knees in despair, just shy of the middle of a busy street, the rain came down.

She lay there paralyzed.